And now the fear is setting in.
May 26, 2010 by admin · Leave a Comment
I’ve recently started doing something I never thought I would have the courage to do, I am actually a dj at a club in secondlife.com. It was nerveracking at first, but once I got the hang of it, I was having fun. A part of me now is seriously thinking about making going back to school to learn broadcasting in real life as well.
And then the fear started to set in, what if I can’t find a good school? Is it worth adding to the balance you are already paying to your student loans? (I’m a twice college dropout. I know! I know!) If I get the degree, would anyone hire me despite my disability? No company will admit it, but I have been turned down for positions in the past due to my having trouble walking. I’m trying so hard not think about it, but it’s not easy.
I was thinking lately to really push myself and get the Inner Demons prequel ready to podcast for sure by October. I’m also looking into research to start my own small press. Still those voices are in my head saying, are you sure you can do this?
I guess what I’m saying is I’m scared. I’m afraid of failing.
